18 Wheels and a Dozen Roses

[AJM80]

Honestly, on a level, it does suck (I hate this most of all for my kids at this point). I should end up financially ok, I have a loving family, a safe, happy place to go to. Sure, on some level I love and will miss him, BUT - he's a jackass - he's still dating a stripper. Regardless of how much he does or doesn't love the kids and I....he's making crappy choices and we don't have to be a part of that or wait around for him.

I told him last night to expect us to start moving forward on a move post vacation. He asked if he could sway that decision - I said probably (thinking he could get a court order, etc for custody)....then wrote back maybe, realizing it sounded like I was just fishing for something from him to keep me around (I couldnt come out and say, well you could take me to court - what would that accomplish besides giving him ideas I hope he hasnt thought of?).

I don't care to get played. I've done what I have done the last 6 months to make things as friendly and happy as possible while we both dealth with some of the emotions and issues. I worked on mine and have a good path ahead of me without him. He doesnt seem to have and now has to deal with what life brings.