back again

[any chance?]

My current work trip is flying by, and I will be back home in less than a week. Have not been in touch with W other than 2 fleeting emails. Going back home makes me very anxious. Part of me says I am going back to a confused woman with issues that need time and care to work out. Part of me says I am headed back to an angry woman with her mind firmly made up and just waiting to finalize the D and bolt forever.

Quite the seesaw. Wish I knew how to act!