Man I am sorry you are having a rough few days and I know exactly what you mean about those special moments that come and you want to share them so much with her but can’t. I wonder why that is though. Why it is that one person can cause so much hurt and damage in our lives? Do we let them? Do we want to stay in the hurt? I doubt any of us do.
Emotions are a funny thing. One minute you think you are doing great the next………..well not so much.
I think you must proceed as if your M is dead, over, finite. There is nothing to save. Your life does not include her in it. Your life is yours to live. What she does say’s or thinks is no concern of yours. She has made her decision and you make yours.
Move on.
Have you decided to start dating? I can’t remember.
If and when she ever decides anything at that point you have something to think about. Till that moment comes, well there is nothing to think about.
I have told you before there is hope in your sitch but not until you have totally moved on and I mean for real.
The feelings?
Well they are what they are, nothing you can do about them at all. They will come. They will haunt you. They will punish you and throughout the whole thing you will live. The sun will rise tomorrow and another day to heal will come.
Be patient with yourself 9, there is no measuring stick as to when you should feel a certain way it just kind of happens.
