It's been 14 days since I've seen W, 11 since going dark. Yesterday I was ok with it, today I'm missing her and desperately want to contact her, like a recovering addict wanting just one more fix. I have the strength not to, but it doesn't lessen the desire.
Been reading a lot of other forums on infidelity, not sure why, maybe as a way of coping myself. It's amazing just how much it hurts, and amazing that the person who once told me she could never forgive me if I cheated went out and did it herself.
At least I didn't run into W or OM while out with friends last night. Old friend who I used to be really close to came out, it was great to see him. After talking for a while about sitch and upcoming plans, he offered to take W's U2 ticket and go with me at the end of the month. Part of me wants to take him up on the offer, part of me just wants to mail W's ticket to her and part of me wants to give both tickets away. Guess I have a few weeks to decide.
Don't decide until a week or so before the concert LP. But if you are still dark, I'd definitely suggest that you GO with a friend. It is a great concert. Not worth missing for W's sh!tty choices.
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
