Gnosis - Nice to hear from you. Back when you were around I often knew I wasn't getting it right. Bottom line is - I simply wasn't "there", but now I am.
Regarding the 4 things you mentioned in reference to what am I going to do:
1) My relationship with kids has got better every day since the "truth" came out. It gets better every day without me havign to work that much on it. They see me differently now.
2) My career has gotten better during the last 2 years while all the other stuff was going on. I went from Sales Rep to Asst Sales Manager to Sales Manager to General Sales Manager within the last five years. I have a great shot at being General Manager if I really want to.
3) I am in better physical shape now than at any point in the last few years. I work out regularly, walk almost every day, eat better, take vitamins. I will be 43 this year and can actually see my abs!
4) I am finally learning to get on with my life and GAL more than ever. I still am, at heart, a homebody but even when I am at home I don't just watch tv anymore.
Regarding goals, I have always been a planner and have lots of stuff planned for the future.
I can honestly say that I am more comfotable in my own skin than I have been at any other point in my life.
One thing you may not agree with - it does matter to me that it appears to have been a carefully laid out plan on STBX's behalf. For one reason - to me, it means that no matter what I did, it would not have mattered at all in reference to busting our divorce. One day, that may not matter to me either, but right now it does.
Thanks for stopping by, and thanks for trying so hard way back then. You had every reason to give up on me. I know that now.
