25, I will try to answer as best as I can... I don't blame her for the foreclosure....what I feel is that we could have worked out any problems we had....I simply could not afford two places.....She kept on cutting her hours....all that was her choice...
Right now all five girls are at home....the oldest just graduated from college and is looking for a job.
She moved to another state...its about 90 minutes away....I text or talk all the time and see them as often as I can...I get the feeling that they are 100% in there mothers corner....Right now my W has anger, hatred, what ever and I think they will not get right with me until W and I get better...Not get back together...just get on the same page and no fighting...
Now as far as me...I think over the last week I have really begun to detach....I have not engaged in any arguing on my part. I continue to get out of the house and do things that I never made the time for....Its been great...My therapist says she is noticing little changes in me...I asked what she meant...She simply said that after 13 months of hearing me...she thinks that I am ready to move on....I must say that as of late I think I can do this....All I want is for everyone to be happy.....With or without me....However I still feel that once we get this agreement signed, it will not matter.....she will still run out of money....I will not engage in any more money talks, unless its about college....I did get a piece of good news...I was finally able to secure the loan needed for my D17 to get back into college.....So that makes me very happy...I will be seeing all of my D's tomorrow and will hug them and tell them that everything will be fine.....Maybe my W will see that holding all of what she holds inside that is against me...is actually hurting the girls....anyway they are coming up to a weekly band that plays on the waterfront...Lots of dancing and I have fun dancing with my girls to the oldies....So I will keep you all posted and much thanks on the replies....
In writing on this forum...it's like medicine almost....I can get the responses I need so when I do talk to my W. I can be a good person and not get into any M talk.....So my main focus is to completely detach over the next few weeks....I think 16 months has been long enough.
