Great support again. Let me address these one at a time:
Jb: The Om should not be my focus at all, yes its painful , but less is more in this case
KD: Interesting take on expecting the worst. Its never been my style as I always expected the best. Even late in a game when we were losing, I always thought there was a way to turn things around. I know this is not a game but I have usually been a half full kind of guy. Putting hope away is a good thought. IVe tried to keep that box deep in my closest but always seems to find its way out.
BTM: Thanks for the kind offer to help each other stay dark. Im not contacting her and havent for a long time. I usually respond to her "madness" and sometimes dont. I coach son tonight and since she doesnt have him , she shouldnt be there. She is in the city tonight trying to pick out a guitar for oldest son. Despite me suggesting we buy a new one for his birthday as I have gotten some real good advice from some of my guitar playing friends, she went to look at it. Im expecting a text from her tonight for sure about the guitar.
LP: I am dark in the sense that I dont initiate contact with her. I will reamin there and will be civil to her when she texts.
25: What can I say, advice again is succinct and wise. As I have mentioned, I have read everything you write on all posts and try to apply. I try and wrap my pea brain around all your concepts.
The one I struggle with and I wish I could embrace is to let HIM shoulder some of the burden. I have tried on many occasions to let HIM in but it just seems forced and fake to me at this stage. I cant explain it. I was raised a Greek Orthodox but got away from it when I went to University. I have read books on this as well as Tolle and others. Maybe IM forcing it but it isnt happening yet.
The more Piglet searched for Pooh, the less he was there. Or something like that. Just getting my Winnie the POOH fix in as well.
Incidently, named after a Canadian bear in Winnipeg Canada. Today is almost done, tomorrow is coming fast.
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