An end to hostilities?

[AntoniaB]

Beatrice I guess I don't have any advice here as I am still fairly new in the process, but I do sense your confusion and really understand why you're feeling pulled in many directions. You said you and he were older and had health issues, might you be feeling that you want "closure" before "time runs out"? (not to be morbid but that's what it sounds like). Like, you want to "at least" resurrect some sort of cordial friendship out of respect for the good years you had before it becomes too late to do so? I can understand why you'd want that. I can see that happening to me someday. But I guess my advice there is be cautious. As you said he is unpredictable, and no one wants to see you be further hurt. If you can truly stay detached that's great, no expectations, great, but in my case I think I'm doing that and then realize after the fact that I hid my own expectations from myself. I guess if you can't hide from yourself you're in good shape, but if that is a possiblity, be cautious :-)