I am doing alright.

I realise that many men would be happy to have me in their lives.
I don't have to settle for a man that doesn't want me and sees me as a persecutor, prosecutor, judge and jury rather than a loving , big hearted , partner.

I have much to offer. I will conquer my fears. I can let go. I can and will forgive and maybe even forget.
He is damaged. I was too.
The difference is I've ripped off the bandaids and addressed the infection in the wounds. I'm not done healing, but I will get there.

He's afraid, he's isolated himself and insulated himself in his aloneness and I have empathy for the fear, but I can't help him get past the or be his physician, nor can I relieve his isolation.

Time to stop looking backward. Time to rid myself of the illusion that I mean something to this man. I don't and haven't for a long time.

Perhaps I'm best served as seeing any remaining interaction with him as a business exchange. Polite, impersonal, a maybe I'll never see you again business contact. What he decides to do beyond child support/visitation is no longer my concern.


BITS
Me-51, WAS-52
Kids 2
M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013
Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice.
Love is a action and choice you make, every day.