Denver, I have been flying under the radar here dealing with my own turbulence. I will not belabor the other posts and I have little to add. For all of the mistakes you feel you made and relive during your personal replay, it is done and in the past, agonizing over the past solves nothing.
Own it, box it, put it on a shelf, and look forward.
Change is often chaotic and destructive. Change is inevitable. We cannot move on without it.
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill