Anywho, I'm taking what 25Mlc said to me yesterday to heart.
But on top of that, I think I'm ready to start forgiving my W for the EA. I think I was holding onto the betrayal and anger so long that it was coloring every interaction.
It was/is a source for a lot of the anger about the lack of affection on my time table and the reason for a lot of the snooping.
I'm also taking a realistic view of our marriage. I mean we've lived together for 16 years. I don't think we ever made a big show of saying good night - with a hug and a kiss, etc. Now I'm getting antsy because that doesn't happen?
last night was good. I had a real estate closing in another town. I told my W about it on Saturday and she said "Why don't the boys and I meet you for dinner before your closing?" so we did.
It was nice we sat outside and enjoyed the weather. My W says, "This is really nice, I wish you didn't have to go to your closing and could just hang out here for a while."
She then tells me that she brought a file to give to another Physiologist she does part-time work for. He works in the area and would be stopping by to pick up the file.
She says "Can you hang around for a while, I want to say hi to David."
What is strange about this is that My W has always had a strict separate work from home policy, especially during the last 16 months. She rarely, rarely has me meet one of her work friends let alone has me wait to say hi.
If I didn't know any better, I'd say this was her 180. LOL.
Everything was nice an normal after that.
This this morning, I'm going to take the kids to day care and she stops me at my car and gives me a hug and a kiss. I was so surprise that the kiss was kinda off the mark.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
