I'm going to echo BTM and recommend dark at this point. W might see it as a punishment, but it's really to give yourself an emotional rest. In my case, I still go through some of the grieving, but like BTM said, I tell myself my W is dead and go on living myself. It's gone from the sitch controlling me to me controlling the sitch. It's hard, but empowering and healthier in the end.
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011