Had taken a break from the site, then had a chance to do a week-long business trip some place really nice. Invited W, but couldn't work out kid care. Was a long, complicated trip.
Was disappointed in W's goodbye and welcome back reaction. W admitted and apologized for what was essentially no goodbye at all. W does not like phone, and prefers little contact while one of us is away. Always has been this way. At least kids were happy to see me home. Frustrated by fact W seemed not to miss me, and wondering when we'll ever ML. W's first reaction to something I brought her was concern about the cost, though today she seemed to recognize that it's a pretty nice item, and wore it. She did help with some travel issues I had during the trip, which is probably her way of helping me. Trying to be aware of our different personalities....
Dumb but I sort of wished for someone to meet me at the airport, or something. Don't think that has ever happend. Realized on the trip that I can't really remember what it is like to have someone want to be around me, call just for no reason, make arrangements to get together, miss me when I wasn't around, or otherwise focus a little attention on me.
Well, now I'm just complaining. As you all know, my W is too independent to "miss" me, and isn't into signs of affection. That's just what it is.
I wonder though: what must it feel like to be missed? what's it like to have a spouse enjoy ML enough to think about it, flirt, or otherwise make it clear that is what is on their mind.
Again, complaining. So I'll stop. Have things to be thankful for, and honestly SOOOOOO glad to be back in the USA.
