Wow! I'm sure you have some very conflicted feelings right now. I know it can be cathartic to get everything out like that, but both of you said things that are going to be hard to 'take back'.
I hope you take 25's advice and drop the rope/go dark. I wrote a letter to my W a week and a half ago (in my thread) and haven't spoken to her or seen her since. In my case, with the ongoing OM and cake-eating, it was the best thing I could have done for myself. The darkness has be *so* helpful to me, I think it would do the same for you. SS complicates that a bit, but I'm sure you could come up with a solution that minimizes contact with W.
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011