you are getting great advice, may I suggest two books? in reverse order for a reason, "Commited" by Elizabeth Gilbert, and "Eat, Pray, and Love".
The hurt will eat you up, fill yor head with good reads, KNOW that you can and will do fine, with or without him, is it imperative you reach this resolution, until then, you will condem yourself to hold your breath and be walking on eggshells until he is ready, if he will be ready at some point, to come back.
Let him go, that silly poem about letting something go and if it comes back it was meant to be yours is true, the harder we hold on to someone the faster they want to escape. My prayers your way, I know you will be fine))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
