Im freaking out. I cant do it. I dont want to see H. I dont want to have dinner with him and do small talk. Im too angry to have a friendly chat. I dont have PMA today.
A text from H this morning: H: tonight? Me: ? As in you want to see S3? H: Yes - dinner? Or no
Seriously thats all I get? I know he's only asking me to dinner cos his mum told him to. I just spoke to MIL just now. She suggested that I go to dinner and have a good time. WTF? Have a good time? Yeah right! She said dont talk about your relationship. I said we dont have a relationship. She said talk only about S3 and what youve done during the week, etc. So basically talk BS. Sounds to me like she wants me to be his friend. Well truth is I dont know if I want to be his friend. Im too angry to be his friend right now. I dont want to see him. I dont want to talk to him. I dont want to think about him.
W - 31 H - 33 Married - 7 years Together - 10 yrs Kids - S 3yrs old Separated - 27/03/11 OW - 10/04/11
