Wow! thanks for taking the time to respond. You have years and it is nice to know that some people take their time to recover.
I too am having a hard time enjoying many of the things I used to enjoy - not necessarily with my exh but having the focus and concentration and desire is hard. I often think - what is the point? which is an awful things to say.
I am finding my way around the computor and yes it helps me a lot!
I don't really wonder who will want me as much as who can I trust again? I have no desire nor willingness.
I have moved to another room and it helps. I have been looking at houses and apt to make a move thinking it might help but am terrified at the prospect of change. Working on changing routines and working different hours looking for my own rhythm and sway. Activities are slow in the making - I have good days and bad ones still where I just want to sit on the couch and stare at the walls and do nothing. Not great but happening less. The idea of moving forward is daunting at this point altho I know eventually it will happen.
Thanks for sharing - it gives me some things to think about even if I am not ready. It gives me hope to hear other stories.
