Kafee and 2step. Thanks for the words today. Needed them and some more Im afraid.

Cant understand it. These damn emotions. Im not acting on them but damn, its really difficult today. Almost feel like I could cry. Miss every part of her right now, except the cheating part,

Faking it like crazy to my peers and students today. Plastered a smile on my face and appear to be cheerful but my god, what is going on?

Still was able to sleep last night and watch TV. When I cant do those things, thats when I know things are real bad. So im not panick stricken.

Maybe a subtle 2x4 could help me get on the right path again. I seem to sustain it for about 45 min at a time.

The next few hours should be better.

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BITS
M-46
W-42
M-16y
T-19 y
s10 s15
BombDec.19/09
Sep-F16/10
Sep Papers signed by W- June 30/10
Recon July 5/10
PA foundOut- Oct 30/10
Mental HospNov/10
moved out Nov/10
Leg Sep Mar 15/11