So, you were down this way?? It was a beautiful weekend.
Yes and Yes...it was lovely this weekend.
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I am trying to disconnect from my H.
To "try" is to fail...to "do" is to succeed.
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I just cant seem to stick to it
cause deep down inside YOU DO NOT WANT TO.
Example, say your child was allergic to something. I would bet that YOU would DO (not try) everything in YOUR power to make sure that whatever they were allergic too you would not have around them.
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but I will answer his texts when I get them
Cause deep down inside you are still fighting to let go.
I am not saying to D your H or to lose hope. What I am saying is that YOU are responsible for YOUR actions. Watch this...
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only because he will call if I dont answer
Option 1 - don't answer the phone. Option 2 - change your number Option 3 - don't have a cell phone, switch to a pager.
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then if I dont answer his calls, he will pay me a visit
Option 1 - don't answer the door Option 2 - Move Option 3 - getting a restraining order
My point, is that IF you want something YOU will do what it is that you need to do. For some reason you continue to allow HIM to control your life and your actions. When YOU finally stop this, a ton of things may happen. You may feel better, you may feel empowered, you may feel like less of a victim, you may feel totally different than you do today.
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I havent heard from him much today or yesterday
Because he is IN CONTROL of HIS LIFE. he does whatever he needs to do.
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He did tell me Sunday night that he loved me and missed me and still cared about me
MLC 101...they try to drag you back in...IMO, the more he KNOWS that you are still waiting for him, the LESS he is likely to ever look inside himself. So, sometimes kissak....letting them go helps THEM and US.
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Why would someone feel this way and yet be in another relationship is beyond me
WHen the WHY does not matter anymore...you are living!
Personally, the why is simple...he has CHOOSEN to live HIS life that way. It was his choice. MLC...probably.. Either way, just as he has a god given right to choose, so do YOU.
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they mean very little anymore
I am going to call bullchit here. They do mean something to you. The mere fact that he contacts you means something and YOU know it. Deep down inside, you still operate with some fear. Fear that you will totally lose him. Me - I say you can let him go, and still love him. First though....you must really love yourself. Love yourself enough to let him completely go.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
