I can only tell you I am so going thru exactly what you are, I feel the same pain, the rollercoster ride of emotions down to the food in the grocery store. I sometimes can't even read these forums without crying. My situation is so similar I could have wrote your words myself. My husband came to me 3 months ago and said the same thing, I to had been out of work (certainly not by choice) but do have a job now. We have been together 26 years (m 23) and he truly is the love of my life. I have taken so much for granted and the pain is unbearable. Although he has not filed yet he has put paperwork together off a website (really after 23 years) this is a man who not only did I ever think would say those words really cherished me. All I can tell you I have been doing is laying low and being positive. I to have a DB coach but I feel the same urgency you do. As hard as it is, stay focused , positive and take care of you. I also pray about it all the time because we can not change their minds they have to figure it out. But we can change our actions, I do believe we get in life just what we are supposed to at the time, to fix what we need to fix....
