BetheMan, I see a man who lies to me, cheats on me, is selfish and has rarely treated me the way that a wife deserves to be treated. I see a man who got the best wife that he could have ever asked for, but it wasn't enough for him. I see a man who will be eternally angry and disappointed with the things that life has to offer. I see a man who will never be happy unless he finds a way to change himself.
But I also see the 18 year old that I dated, the 20 year old that I married. The man who was faithful to me for 8 years. The man who prayed everyday first thing in the morning. The man who was the Assistant Pastor of our church. The man who mentored teenaged boys every summer. The man who gets all of my jokes and makes me laugh. The man who I have rarely exchanged an angry word with.
And it's very hard to throw in the towel.
Maybe I should have asked the question a little differently. Who do you see NOW and in the future?
I still see glimpses of who STBX was years ago, but mostly I see who she is today. If I met her today, and there was no history at all, she would not be an appealing person to me.
