There is no question that I do not want to lose my W. I love her very much, and this nightmare has solidly reinforced that, but I am pretty sure she does not see that. I think I now realize that she has been focused on a D for at least 18 months, if not longer, and, although she strongly maintains she has given 100% to reconciling, I don't believe that is true. Comments she made when we were together recently makes me realize she is totally focussed on the negative, and, between her IC and an old friend urging her forward, I think our M is doomed. I dearly hope not, but I have to be realistic.
I am trying to detach and adjust, and am going to GAL as much as I can. Seems as if I have no other choice.
H 51, W 46 no kids T 22 years M 17 years ILBNILWY 2/10 1st D talk 6/10 partial recovery W files D 5/11 long distance separation 8/11 moving forward on D 10/11 legal separation complete 1/2012
