Detach Dog

[ninelives]

Yes there were moments that I didnt want. Where she dominated my thinking again. Its getting better but I dont want to lie to anyone and say they are not there. I think I MISS her more than ever today however, what good is that? It is what it is though.

Just got back with dinner with my kids in the next town over. We had a lot of chuckles in the Chinese Restaurant, really silly stuff where my youngest almost choked from laughing so hard. He loves to laugh and I love to hear him laugh. We had a great meal together and then went shopping for odds and ends and then grocery shopping. I get so choked up when Im with my boys. Love them so much. Cant get enough of them.

We had some more stupid moments in the stores and they bought me a "happy birthday " hat that looked absolutely ridiculous and insisted I wear it for the rest of the night. They thought I was so embarrassed but they also know me better than that. I dont embarrass easy. It was still really fun.

Went and washed the car for the last bit of the evening , bought some Jiffy POp and going to watch a movie with the old style popcorn.

Should be fun. Then its back to reality tomorrow.

Despite the good times, there is still a rollercoaster going on inside of me at times but it will get better right?

Trying every technique I know to detach with mixed results. Having the boys as my focus really helped today though.

Well, back to the pool and the algae, Wish green was in for pools but apparently blue is the preferred color.

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