Last night I felt a great sense of sadness. I was lying in my bed and I realised - Im alone. H is not here and he may never be. This isnt just some stupid fight where we make up and everything will be ok. Its not ok. And I dont know if it ever will be. H has broken his vows. He is with OW. He is in love with someone else. He has abandoned his family.
S3 has been sick since last week. He wakes up coughing and crying. He crawls into my bed and I dont get much sleep because he keeps me up. I hate H because he doesnt have to deal with any of this.
I hate thinking that he has all the freedom, money and fun. I hate thinking about him with OW. I hate that he cant see what a psycho she is. I hate that he cant see what a bright future we had. Urrrrggghhh I just hate this!
W - 31 H - 33 Married - 7 years Together - 10 yrs Kids - S 3yrs old Separated - 27/03/11 OW - 10/04/11
