Rysmom, you have been talking this for over a year and each time you come up with some excuse not to. If you wish to continue on this path, that's your business, but understand 2 things. 1st Your H isn't coming back. You can keep holding on if you want to, but he's not coming back. 2nd your H will milk you dry and hide and spend money. He wanted your son's college money for God sakes! Anyway, those are your options.