ImprovedRomeo > I know what I feel is normal for the most part. At least I expect that it is... I guess I thought that because we had been living separately for the past few years I would be used to it. I have been so surprised that I still feel the way I do.
I had the book (Journey from Abandonment to Healing)and tried to read but found it overwhelming! How did you get through the book?
I tried talking to a therapist in the beginning but didn't find it helpful perhaps because I really just want a companion. I have tried meds but they are either too strong or non effective so I think I must not really need them. I half started to walk daily which helped some and had darkening shades put up in the room I am sleeping which helps.
I did clean out my yard, put out some plants and bought some flowers so I can sit out with my coffee in the morning/read or in the evenings when it gets cooler. We have a huge variety of birds thanks to a neighbor who puts out food for exotic birds - saw a baby cardinal yesterday afternoon for the first time.
So this is my life now at least for a time. I have been trying to change my routines and work schedule to see if what feels more natural but not noticing anything yet. Talking about your DD reminds me of how much I miss my kids! They moved out on their own during this period so I didn't have them to keep me busy but they do check in once in a while because they know how I am feeling.
Can't see me meeting up with anyone at this point. I have no desire for anyone else at the moment - and no trust left. (Know any good ways to rebuild that one? lol)
