OnMyWay: to who knows where?

[OnMyWay]

Strange things continue to happen around here.

After all last week's issues and non-issues, I've been getting constant feedback from mutual friends & family. Most people are just trying to stay out of it, which is understandable and preferable. However, most all of them say the same thing: WAW wishes she could have "her husband back" but, also say that she says, "it's too late for that now, there's nothing that can be done."

Weird, because she tells me it's over, we will eventually get a divorce, etc., etc. You know, all that WAS BS.

I received a text from her this morning at 8:30. D got sick at camp and she was bringing her home. The got here around 9. I was up making myself breakfast. We put D to bed. W sat with me showing me photos and videos from camp. She looked exhausted. All this has really aged her noticeably. I said something about going back to bed for more rest. She said she was going to shower. Then, she asked if she could borrow a t-shirt from me, as she had nothing clean to wear.

After her shower, she came out wearing a pair of pajamas she had left here. I was shocked! She looked very sexy and I was under the impression it was on purpose. After D was taken care of, I headed off to bed and she asked if she could sleep with me. Where else was she gonna sleep? Duh?

She got in bed. I reached over and cuddled up to her. She let me, actually backed into me. Then, she did the thing she always does: "I don't want you to get the wrong impression with me being here." WTH? What wrong impression? The one where you dress all hot & sexy? Or the one where you react positively to my "cuddle" advances? Or the one last week with the porch kiss which you so readily participated in, only to rewrite the history of it happening? Or the impression you left by reminding me not to get the wrong impression as you are lying in bed with me right now?

This is all very interesting. It seems as if last week when I backed out, her noticing, it put her in some sort of position where I wasn't paying enough attention to her and that made her made. Sort of put her on the offensive. Am I still getting the wrong impression here? Perhaps it's all in my mind - wishful thinking - but I don't think so. The math just isn't adding up.

What am I missing?