Had to meet at a local restaurant for H to pick up S3. My cousin and her family came over my parents place and H didn't want to see them. I haven't told them anyway so I was ok with not having to deal with them either.
So when I met H he had to get the baby seat out of the boot again. This always makes me angry because I know why he takes it out. Anyway, after putting S3 in the car he chats abit about the job offer he received during the week. He said he hadn't decided which job to take but was leaning towards staying with his current work place - I'm sure OW would be using her influence here. I listened and validated. Then I noticed him wearing a watch. H always said he hated wearing a watch because he hates any kind of jewellry. Well he was wearing a brand new Tag Huer watch! Unbelievable! The guy has no money, has racked up two credit card debts and now is walking around with a brand new TH watch. Meanwhile I'm scrimping and saving to make a life for S3 and me and he's out shopping, partying, boozing and wining and dining to his hearts content. So unfair! Anyway he said he had to go so then he leant over and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
The next day as he dropped S3 off he wouldn't even get out of the car. Gosh these MLCers drive u insane! Nice one day and then not the next.
Visited SIL on Saturday she gave birth to a baby girl. She told me that she told her Aunt that she had lost all respect for H. She told her aunt about OW and said she was surprised cos Aunt didn't look shocked. That's because BIL had already told her this info. H's whole family have really lost respect for him. I feel sorry him but realise he brought this all on himself.
I saw a card MIL gave to SIL for the birth of her baby, MIL signed it from her, FIL, H, me & S3. This made me cry a little. I know she still thinks of me as family and I know she wants us to get back together. SIL said if H ever brought OW home she would not speak to her. She said she has no respect for a woman who goes out with a married man who has a child. I believe this is how MIL and FIL feel too. They love me and S3 very much and feel that H has done the wrong thing by us. I think the whole family feels shame. And now the extended family knows which is now worse. His extended family love me too. Always had a very good relationship with all of them.
Time is really helping me with how I'm feeling. I am starting to enjoy things a bit more. I'm laughing at work again. I'm watching tv again - although I can't watch couples kiss or be intimate as it makes me think of H and OW...yuck! S3 and I are doing fun things. I know it can only get better, it's just gonna take time.
Won't see or hear from H till Wednesday when he sees S3. Then he's going away with OW for the weekend. Seriously they have such a great life don't they - until Karma catches up with them that is!
W - 31 H - 33 Married - 7 years Together - 10 yrs Kids - S 3yrs old Separated - 27/03/11 OW - 10/04/11
