by training I'm a L so I'm going to go back to your first post (here on this thread) b/c a few things really hit me later...
I'm going to take "her" point of view and ask some questions you do not have to answer, to me. But you ought to ask them of yourself, at least. I think they might help you see another point of view, like hers.
So I'll go by what you posted...
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016