WAW in Los Angeles

[wawinla]

It's been a while since I've updated...but needing some encouragement.

WAW in full "Eat, Pray, Love" mode, as she is in the midst of traveling all over to experience various cuisines. For instance, she flew to New Orleans on the spur of the moment last weekend and this weekend is leaving town again for another foodie pilgrimage.

I'm doing my best to GAL, but struggling with the fiscal realities impending as part of the D. I'm still looking for my next opportunity and stressed about the financial impact of the D (e.g., bankruptcy or foreclosure of the home). It's hard not to reach out to my WAW to talk to her about all of this. Disappointingly I'm not sure she even cares, as she NEVER reaches out to me since moving out about 10 weeks ago. Our only passive contact was through Twitter and she closed her Twitter account awhile back.

Being in the house is tough. Do I start removing photos and other mementos of nearly 20 years together? Start packing/throwing(?) things out, since I can't see how we can keep the house.

Just so frustrated, sad, and angry. This week reminds me of how I felt when I first learned the news 4 months ago. I know there are ebbs and flows in the process...it [censored] now.

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M: 47; W: 39
M: 4.5 yrs; T: 18 years
No children
Separated: 01/19/11
Wife Served Papers: 02/1/11
Wife moved: 03/05/11
Responded: 04/14/11