Yes there are plenty of things I would do differently now.
I can’t go back and change that but I can make dam& sure I don’t do it again.
In a way this sitch has been my awakening, my rebirth of sorts.
A few weeks ago I felt as if I would be forever jaded.
I don’t think that will be the case. Two weeks no contact right now and you know what? I am healing and I am ok. I have a prayer for her:
I want her to be happy, no matter what that means. I want her to find someone who will treat her with all the love she deserved from me. I want her to meet someone who will see her always as I do now.
I hope she does. Accepting this has been the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and while I still have days that I feel hallow for the most part I think I am doing OK.
