Depression from dating

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All good advice. Golfgirl, however you have accomplished that, congratualtions. It has been very hard to be happy with just myself. First thing I need to do is forgive myself for this past relationship. I wanted it to be the one so bad, that I was saying and doing all the right things when in my heart, I knew there was something missing. i hurt someone like my w hurt me when she asked for the divorce. i never want to do that again to someone. It is the worst feeling in the world. I like the friend idea. I think mine went from friend to we are going to get married in the future within 4 months...My god how could i have let something like this happen. I just need to work hard on me. Work on being alone when I don't have my sons. I have them every sat, sun, mon. I workout everyday, but I need more fulfillment. Having somebody tell you they love you, need you, can't be without you was the most wonderful feeling I have every felt. i can't remember my w ever saying that. however, 5 months in I started to feel that i wasn't totally in love. I was trying so hard, but I couldn't look into her children's eyes anymore knowing that I wasn't sure. This was so gutwrenching for me...But again, I have to be ok for me and my sons first. So i a have to forgive myself for what happened. My D has gone on close to two years and the w is trying for sole custody to get more money from me now. What did i do deserve all this pain in my life??? I didn't sleep one hour last night. my insomnia is back... I swear I am a nice guy who wears his heart on his sleeve. I just wanted Happily Ever After...It seems so elusive now. I need to work on being happy with what I have...And Musclegal as you said, God will open the door for the right person...