Exactly where I am, mentally and emotionally. If I only knew then what I know now...my W and I have discussed my sins of the past, and I have said the same things you have said to yours. My W has also recognized her part in the failure of our M and has apologized to me.

I could handle all of that with more grace and detachment if it were not for her continuing her EA, even after assuring me 3X it was over.

H 56
W 48
D27,S21
SS25
SS22 Severely autistic
M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs.
"I've never loved you" 3/7/2011
Separated 8/7/2011
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