Foo, just noticed your previous response. I've also wondered if I'd really go back after all of this. For most of this nightmare, I'd have jumped back in without hesitation. I think this was the fear talking though. I really don't know now. I think now, my bigger fear is starting up a R with someone else. I know I'm not ready for that, but I'm not sure I'd have the strength to stop myself if it did happen. I'm turning into my own WAS!
I'm thinking along the same lines. I know I'm not ready for a full-on R with anybody, but I do think that if someone came along right now I would jump at the chance. I just want a boost to my self confidence and to feel that there is a life & a world outside of my current state of melancholy. Who knows it may make my W a little jealous although she seems to be so wrapped up with the OM right now I doubt it.
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This is my 40th post now so hopefully I won't have to wait the usual 3-4 days for it to appear.
Me 48 W 49 D19, S17, D14 Together 25yr, Married 22yr Me checked-out July 10, back Sept 10 W checked out Nov 10 Separated Dec 10 ILYBNILWY 2nd Apr 11 We're finished + D bomb 17th Apr 11
