Detach Dog

[ninelives]

Thanks for the positive posts. 25, your wisdom on this board continues to shine. Despite the 2x4s handed out, I look forward to your replies. Starsky: the money I leant her, IDK, it didnt make me feel better. I simply couldnt stand to see her in dire straits. I know what you are saying but I big part of me still loves her and didnt want to see her suffer although a part of me did. Conflicted.

Update:

I get a text from her this morning

W: Damn, you were right again about the price of patio furniture, it is really cheap now at Zeller and Canadian Tire.
I know our furniture is a little ratty but I cant afford new ones right now.

I didnt respond.

She sends another:

W: Well I hope you have a nice birthday, and you have a fun time by yourself down south. Have a nice time when you are away.

M: U2

W: You are going to see U2?

Again I didnt respond

W: Im just trying to be funny.

W: So are you and my S back to normal. Also, did you talk to youngest son about his friends grand pa dying.

M: I have taken your advice and will distance myself from your family. No havent talked to son about that. I have about 10 things on the go so I really havent got time to text right now.

About half hour later, I have done the things to get ready and I text her back.

M: I did not get your email about the guitar, talked to my best friend ( she knows he is heavily into guitars) says that guitar is way too cheap for what they are selling it for, must be something wrong, best bet is to get new guitar.

I figure she may be a little miffed because she was trying to find a guitar on line and must have spent a lot of time. IN the past , i shot down some of her ideas ( some where so bad) but I didnt want to feel like i wasnt valuing the time she spent.

M: But I am willing to look at it and foward it to my friend.

W: Okay, so what is your email again.

M: Studegiannis @ yahoo.Stud ( a play on words of my last name)

W: Noway

M: Way
( and she actually believes that)

W: yahoo.ca or com

M: Just kidding and I give her my real one

M: You home now ( She just workded 12 hour shift 730 pm to 730 am)

W: NO , on my way to next town over

M: Huh, you must be tired

W: I am but there's a huge sale at Canadian Tire

M: Well drive carefully, you want to see your birthday tomorrow.

W:I guess Im not thinking of birthdays this year. Im not having anymore LOL

M: I guess that explains your youthfull look and attitude.

W: As if . I know Im haggish

M: Isnt that a scottish Dish

W: And my attitude, wEll thats something less than desired LOL

Ha Ha, I have developed a lisp it seems and hagus is disgusting looking too. LOL

W: did you look at the guitar?

M: No and I have to get going to do my safety check on my bike before I go . If I want to arrive in one peace'

M: Piece

W: Piece or pieces peace. Peace out Ride safe.

At this point youngest son comes over and wants to text. He writes the following.

S: Btw , I love you
and he sends it, and im thinking that she thinks I sent that.

He quickly adds MOM.

W: Thank you , Is this Oldest or youngest. I love both of you.

M: That must have been a shock to you.

W: Yeah, I nearly hit the FLOOR, very funny.

And it was time to go.

Despite my best efforts, and believe me I dont want to feel this way. I am melonchollay about this weekend. I used to look so forward to our birthday weekend. Its rare when a couple can share their birthdays a couple of days apart.

Getting Off the Rock will really help me deal with this. One of my very best friends is coming from Syracuse so Im very stolked to see him.

I put together a birthday package from the boys to her. NOthing romantic , the only thins sentimentle is a pic frame I found stating. " If you knew my mom , you would know what an angel is like" I put a pic of her mom and her dad in it with oldest son.

With any luck and perhaps a little partying, I wont think about her too much.

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