Day 5 of Full Dark (no stars) and I can say that I'm feeling fine. Not great, but not bad or numb. I've got a four day weekend and just the fact that I didn't have to use an alarm this morning was a great start to the day!

I was thinking last night that I don't think W will actually get a L and file for D. I truly think she was lashing out, just based on her past behaviours. I think the point of my thought process, though, was to let myself know that I'll be fine either way. Who knows, she could surprise me smile

Foo, just noticed your previous response. I've also wondered if I'd really go back after all of this. For most of this nightmare, I'd have jumped back in without hesitation. I think this was the fear talking though. I really don't know now. I think now, my bigger fear is starting up a R with someone else. I know I'm not ready for that, but I'm not sure I'd have the strength to stop myself if it did happen. I'm turning into my own WAS!

Such a nice lazy day to myself, no firm plans or things that need to get done. I could get used to this...

Me 43 W 38
M 5 T 7
SD20
S15, S13 with 1st W
ILYBNILWY June 2010
Separation/Bomb July 2010
Divorce Feb 8, 2011