You are 100% right I am in panic fear mode that drives my emotional response that is all over the place and I'm sure it's hard for my W to get a handle.
I agree that way too much M talk has taken place and it does not help. But we are supposed to have a talk tonight about the S.
I am also focusing too much on the past and how our marriage used to be.
I think she is all over the place too. she is scared to do the S, but scared not to. I don't know how your H was approaching the S. My W has consistently said that it will be a chance for breather and to work on our marriage without the pressure of day to day interactions. So when she want's the S she's saying that she wants to save the M.
I agree that forgiveness and letting go of the anger are huge for me. I haven't' reach that point. I don't think I've told my W "I forgive you" or forgiven myself.
Snooping is a coping mechanism for m when I feel anxious to the point where it's almost pathological.
Thanks for the word
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
