Don't think I don't have my moments, I do. I understand everything you are feeling. I too believe that I will always love my ex and long for the good part of our relationship BUT, I have let too much of life pass me by waiting for restoration. I have had to accept that he really is not the man I thought he was, midlife crisis or not. I really believe that I was in love with his image of himself, not his true authentic self. He was a fake a fraud.
It took a long time for me to get all the "wonderful times" out of my head and realize that it really is not a normal thing to run away from your family.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
