I don't know why...

[New2day]

I am sad punkin. At least at times. When I let myself be.

don't let him catch you looking

And the only ones I let see me looking back are you here. Everyone else see's a woman starting over. I've picked myself up out of the trenches. I'm going to school full time and working full time. I spend my free time (what little I have) taking care of my cute little house and spending time with BF and D. No one knows my struggles. My life is totally different. I have done ALOT of things I had never done before and continue to do so. On the outside all is well. I'm "faking it till I make it" . I know full well that my M is over. I'm okay with that. But I can't stop my heart and my mind...Everyonce in awhile I have to let myself look back. That's all it is...