Won't stand for a broken family

[Timetotry]

25, not sure which puppy comment so I'll comment on both.

He wasn't joking when he was saying on the phone on Saturday that women go right to the puppy and its an easy way to pick up and he used the "D" word. I didn't respond with any reaction so that one he couldn't hold against me.

As for the neightbor saying about having to get rid of the dog, its just a manner of him not controlling a decision I think and the fact that I spoke to someone about what is going on with 'us'. In the end, it hasn't been brought up again so I guess its ok.

Journaling:

Yesterday we all went out to dinner as a family and had a good time. Came back and he stayed around for an hour or so before leaving.

Today and even yesterday his communications seem to be a bit distant again, but not confrontational. Its just only about him though, no asking how I am, kids. etc. I dunno if its from my IC and two daughters now heightened awareness or me just realizing that its his new personality. D1 last nite, who was always the closest to him was furious with him. She says he is now selfish and even went as far to say she doesn't know why I would have married someone like him cause now she sees him for what he is presently, an alien. I tried to defend him but there was only so much I could do.

IC today says I have to stop carrying his burden and just live for me and the kids. He has to figure out his own issues. While he is at the house Sat and Sun, I will goto the shore and stay at my sister's. I will do my best to stay dark because I know he will text and call the whole time. I hope I hold to my word on this. I want him to see what its like at the house, with kids and maybe realize he does miss me, not just everything else.

I really didn't like how my D1 was feeling, it breaks my heart. I really thought there was progress, now I am thinking no progress, being used in a sense and not knowing it. Used to fill time void or something. Not a good feeling at all tonight.