Thanks snodderly, after all this time I guess I still need more patience.
But it is paying off, H had a birthday recently and for the first time in 7 years we spent the evening of it together and had a nice time. H had called me at work around lunchtime, but it didn't occur to me until later that he was hinting about going out for lunch. I absolutely HAVE to learn to listen better and interpret what he is saying.
NNP, I think it just means you're busy improving your life, and that's a good thing!
I had a really cool event last weekend, it was something new for me and my horse, and we won!
H has been real busy with his business, and I'm not sure how to help or how much to help or if I should help. I work full time, I take care of the ranch and livestock, I don't want to be busier, but my heart says I should be helping him. If I ask he always gives me something to help him, which is a big change for him too.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.