I feel like I'm suffering from PTSD or something. I've been cycling in between numb and shaky to feeling relatively normal within a few hour time span. It took all my strength not to cry at work yesterday morning, but the afternoon was perfectly fine. It's a good thing it's slow at work because half the time all I can do is stare at my screen.
During those 'unfogged' moments, I've been reading some comedy books and decided to look into meetup.com. They have a running group that meets on Wednesdays at a local brewpub I like. I joined up and will start next week. My previous routine was to go to various bars/pubs on Wednesday nights with our group of friends, but I don't feel I can do that anymore due to W and/or OM being there.
Just got off the phone with a friend who is traveling around the world with his dad. Caught him up with my sitch, it was great to be able to talk to someone I've known for 35+ years even though he's literally on the other side of the world (NZ).
Next IC appointment isn't until Wednesday. Hope I can stay sane until then
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011
