18 Wheels and a Dozen Roses

[AJM80]

So, that is a bit out of order and a little generalzed/but still long.

Overall, I would say I am closer to leaving (because living near family and friends in a calm, family oriented society is the life I want.) and closer to fine with it. He's still not seeing this clearly/is hiding from reality some. He's still isolating himself. Maybe he'll wake up and realize what he's got on the line. Maybe it'll take a few years. Maybe I'll be around, maybe not. I'm dropping the rope, right? I think I did a good job with this convo...What do you, the brave few who can wade through that think?

He was so agitated that he bolted for a train and left his keys and sunglasses. He held together pretty well. He showed more emotion at the horror of seeing my sister's family than he did when he said he was horrified at the thought of us moving.

I also refrained from texting that I wouldn't believe he was ending things with OW until I saw proof of it. Although I just had an angry twinge that I'm sure the OW's extra keys are on my counter.

Just happy with myself right now. Life is hard, but I'm doing alright.