Journaling: Last night I went to the Archery range. Summer leagues have not started yet as the outdoor range still needs prep work. This spring has been too wet to get the fields mowed properly; the owner did not want to rut the fields with tire tracks.
This isn’t about competing in league play for me. It is about socializing with a group of people detached from the drama of this sitch. So I stayed at the indoor range for about 2 hours practicing and passing the time between lines socializing. I need more practice socializing than shooting the bow anyway.
I’ve been in a bit of turmoil since dropping the paperwork off at the Ls office, waiting for another dip in the roller coaster. I have always been a planner and speculating outcomes to build contingencies for is wearing thin. I need to convince myself I have prepped as much as I can and find another distraction
There is a quote I found elsewhere on this site that applies: “There is no better moment than now. I always tell my wife: If you dwell on your worst case scenario and it does not happen, you have wasted your time. If it does happen, you have lived it twice" – Michael J Fox” The man has Parkinson’s disease. If he can keep this attitude so can we.
Our daughter tagged a couple of pictures of me rappelling during the Memorial Day weekend last year. It was a good time. W had never rappelled before and really enjoyed herself. I don’t have many pictures with her smiling genuinely in them. There was one of her at the base of the cliff coming off belay in the album.
It is hard to believe it was only a year ago and we had plans to return again this year up until the bomb.
The emotions I feel about this are pretty minimal. I am taking this as an indication of my detachment level.
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill
