18 Wheels and a Dozen Roses

[AJM80]

Ok, I was good and didn't do any random texts last night or this morning. I've got to start weaning myself off our friendship and detaching more. He still has way too much power to hurt me - I'm ok with being vulnerable and open, but I think I may be too isolated lately.

I keep falling into a (bad? I think) habit of pausing my life to let the settle a little more. I don't want my D and I to make a bunch of new friends that we'll just leave in a few months. But I'm also not ready to just pack up and leave either.

If you pray, pray for me tonight. I don't know if the 180 is to sit and listen to him or to be very clear about what I want (seems like this could be controlling, even in the general language I used above?)