Thanks, folks. I am now on my trip and away from the W. Trying to let the idea that my M is over settle. She is going to do what she is going to do, and it is apparent that she no longer wants me in her life. Lots of tears, 'it didn't have to be this way' and 'we should have paid attention sooner', but I can't tell if she is sincere or just playing me.

Never thought I would have that uncertainty about the woman I have loved for 20 years.

Would'nt it just be easier to suck it up and walk away?

H 51, W 46
no kids
T 22 years
M 17 years
ILBNILWY 2/10
1st D talk 6/10
partial recovery
W files D 5/11
long distance separation 8/11
moving forward on D 10/11
legal separation complete 1/2012