You are so introspective at this point, this is good. Looking at things just as they are, not hoping, wanting to change things, just acceptance.
I find myself there also. I have given up all control regarding ex and I so appreciate this place. This place only comes with a whole lot of pain and growth. I no longer have this ache in my heart for ex. He has self-destructed and he has to find his way out of the chaos he has made.
I find myself functioning very well during the day and at night praying for him and hoping that he eventually finds that peace. I use to be hopful that he would, now I just don't see it.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
