Still waiting for posts to appear; not sure what I have already written...
After W texted me at work this morning indicating she wanted a D, I was mostly numb and useless for the rest of the day. Got home, sat down and looked around at the house we had bought together 10 years ago with grand visions of renovating it into a real showpiece. Today we are only about 50% there. I remembered the countless hours we worked side-by-side to paint, open doorways, close doorways, tear out walls, refinish floors, install trim...and I lost it. Sat there and cried uncontrollably for what seemed like forever. I thought about all of the dreams we had that were going down the tubes, all of the things we talked about that would not happen...I got onto my knees in the middle of our living room and asked God to take this burden from me (I am a Christian and a believer, so it was easy to ask Him to take it).
More to come...
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
