At the end is a new beginning

[islander]

Well, I am on the road tothe big D, and I am ok. I am not scared of that anymore.

I am worried about my ability to pay my bills, but I will be ok. I have my family to help me, even though I would prefer to do this on my own. I am grateful for them.

I went and got my own checking account today. Scary, but it was necessary.

Talked to W on the phone today, not good.

We were discussing out car ins and she asked of it would be cheaper to get separate ins. I told her it downs make a difference now if we are paying our bills together. Then she said when would be a good time to separate our accounts. I told her to file for D, and we could separate everything.

Then we started arguing a out the details of the D, and who would get what. Can come to an agreement. I told her I would take the house which is 15k under, and she could assume the credit card debt which is abou 12k. Then she said she wasn't taking the debt, and she wanted the washer and dryer too, which I am not agreeing to.

Then she says she could keep the house, the same house she said she never wanted, that was too expensive, and that she would never move back into. She is crazy now.

Then unasked her about the 7k ring, and she said she wasn't giving it back, that we both bough it, and she was not going to sell it. But she wants to be fair about the bills in giving me my share. But it was ok for her to spend a bunch of money that we had saved when she went to Disney with her D.

I am so sick of this. I want it to be over. I don't want to be married to her any more. I don't even know who she is anymore, and I no longer want to either.

There was more tha was said, but those are the highlights.