25yearsMLC, no-my H is currently not broke. Every time he has left me it was when he came into large sums of money from roofing. The fist time, he dug up 20 grand out of yard and spent it all (on a stripper) in about 4 months, then came back broke. The second time, he had a decent amount saved and left me only to come back so broke that he was borrowing $ from his rents. This third and current time he left he dug up 26 grand from this winters roof shoveling and took it and is now again on a spending spree (new van -boat - motel- appartment-Lawer-bars/food every day- and now his latest newest career idea of opeing a tavern).
I bet ya anything he will blow through his $ in about 6 months, and come crawling back to his back-up-plan=(me). And I will not fall for it. Also, another trend I see in him is that everytime he leaves he pursues new career endevors, and new OW. He is a lost cause.
I had a weird dream last night (first one that was not a nightmare in about a month)and I was sitting on a river bank in my car with the door open - Their was a flood/rapid flowing water in which people were struggeling to get on their feet all around me (but no one was in serious hurt or trouble) and I was safe from the waters by only about 1 ft - But I wasnt scared and instead I was looking up to see the beauty of the birds flying over head.
I tend to read into this dream as an indicator that I truely am starting to see this disaster of a M as a blessing (that he left) that I am able to be saved by my higher power and not have to worry so much about my future as he is here to guide me. TIPPER p.s. I am sure I will be back here tonight, cuz H usually comes into house on Tues. when I am bowling to use his office stuff -And he will probably be dropping off the Sep./D Paper work he has been ranting about. I will be prepared.
